Sunday, February 1, 2015

The Experiment

The rhymes aren't coming to match my mind's desire. 
I want to say so many things in succinct ways that carry wings. 
I want to tell the whole world that being open takes courage. It takes great strength and fluid states of inner being used by everyone else. Finding a state made of two things the deepest cry wants to know and be. To be an offering is one, to be in balance is the other. Because they all have an urgent need to be successful and free. The work it takes to hug the world is great, indeed, with hugest pitfalls. They do not see the soft demeanor. They do not hear the kindest giving. They pay attention to very little. Their minds and flaws make them so crippled. How to be still within this body when soul will not allow to be held down. When will the answer come to be. When will the knowing be deep. 
Until that moment, it remains: the yo-yo affect of the mundane. The wisdom comes and usually goes. The desire to merge, well, that only grows. And grows... 

Beneath the Words

He is happy
When I write
Gives him something
To think about.
I rhyme words
In strange arrangement
My thoughts flow
From different pages.
But what needs to be made clear
Is that words don't just appear
They are driven
By the cry
From behind
The playful eye.
It sees much
And feels the depth
Of mind's tricks
Of life's grand breadth.
It wants little
Of what's known
It looks hungrily
At the unknown.
It rejoices in the night
And applauds the crickets' laugh.
It is scared of the machine
That requires
Sacrificial sins.
And the sight leads me to write
Late at night
Into next twilight.
There's never any ending
To its warning
To its venting.
All that's left to you, sweet reader
Is your own insights
Your own wisdom.



Too much in Your Head

So serious you are,
Counting stars in darkened sky
When the smile does appear
It leaves quickly-why so, dear?

Smile, smile, smile
Run, dance, flirt
The sun is out and the clouds are fluffy
The earth is spinning and the rain is loud
Music's warmth envelops the earth
Your body spins inside out

Nothing's real, nothing's hard
Nothing's easy, nothing's mine
Love's abound all around

I know nothing, I want to know
I feel the pain, I sense the sorrow
I look away, I run out
I shed a tear, I run down

The song brings life
Cute face tells of love

Come to me, my warrior
Lie down on earth
Feel the grass, the dirt
Melt into her, her depth
Know more than before
Be here, be now unlike before
Be light and still
Be free, in thrill



Awaiting...

Take my heart and wrap it with a bow
Keep it at a distance, admire, and enjoy it
Then hug it close and embrace it fully
Know you, too, are a part of my soul

Allow me to melt into your safety
Hold me with your grace with no expectation
Watch my being soar in beauty and perfection
We will both fly in this newly-found perception

I will make you shine, I will make you glow
You will never tense that eyebrow or your nose
Then you will melt into me with all of your being
We can both grow into the world currently hidden

Patience

Slowly inching
Toward your flame
Warmth of the hand
Soothes small frame
Dream of the day
I give up my way
Descend into you
Relax and stay

Root Cause

Mountains so high reaching way up to blue sky
I'm looking all around-so much green-it stretches out
There is no end in sight to this world of black and white
Only shades of rainbow hues form the spectrum of me and you

What I feel inside is strong and it won't release its hold
I'm looking for direction and for help of any type
Please allow this dream projection to become a real kind
I now know the root cause of my desire

I want to be the one who sets you on fire
I want you to burn me into the ground
I want you to take me and blow me out
I want you to enter the world of the beyond
May we reside in the arms of the divine
Will I ever be this fortunate in life?
I will keep on asking 'til the end of time

Ultimate Glow

Going down a slippery slope. Knowing full well the dangers of this road. Hoping to keep this body unharmed. Wishing for others to know only charm. Hoping that all can see the truth. Hoping that all can agree on one thing. That which can bring joy and dance to all those involved in this unsolvable maze. I never mean harm. I don't want to crowd. I don't know the way to the freedom around. I'm playing the game with a different rules set that makes me a danger, or an enemy at best. Yet what can I do when the yearning is strong to break out of all constraints placed by others' unwritten law? It's all made by men of small perception. It makes no sense. It's all a deception. I will never win, nor add team members. While search for true love will push me beyond their madness. If there is a chance of gigantic proportions that one other soul can share my perception, then let it be so, and let things just flow, and let us feel one in the ultimate glow the kind I'm convinced is meant to be known.

In Searching

The search is on all the time. It isn't clear to most minds. Like a hum of electricity through the wires - persistent and soft. Must be extremely quiet to hear it. Just like the hum of life within is saying things and telling us what the search is all about, but we're unable to hear. If the search is on, might as well give in to the search, throw precaution to the wind, and surrender to it. Can't beat the nature of life - only struggle will arise.

Evolution

From nothing to searching for everything and being everything
To failing over and over
To banging the head against the wall
To a potential breakdown of all that composes this life
To the path that takes to nothing once again.
The full circle of existence.
With nothing, everything should be.

A Gift

Do you know that you were my channel through which I was shown how to be not? And then everything seemed so still and quiet and there wasn't much I needed or sought? If you had asked me to run over water, I would have gladly done it like it was my luck. If you had held my head and stared intently, I would have surrendered without holding back.

I wanted to give you whatever you wanted. I wanted to gently gift you with love. I wanted nothing from you at that moment- whatever you asked for was no problem at all.

I had a small taste of this thing called devotion. The privilege came and showed itself. I long for the day it becomes my reality. Every moment and every breath. And this is the reason I ask for Her grace. Please give me a subject to fall into deeply, please give me the love I need to stay there. Please make me the sweetness that seems to be sleeping. Please melt me, please fold me, please break and dissolve me. I want to be nothing and all, all at once.