Longing for Love

Please forgive if this might cause a disturbance
And I need you to know of my love and devotion
And I need you to see my deepest commotion
That serving you is my unwavering notion

But you're running away, you need motion
And you'd like to breathe with the big ocean
And you want to stretch out with the freedom of god
While I'm willing to wait for you on the sideline

And I know that you need to find yourself
And I fully support your longing to escape
And my love for you can't extinguish itself
Maybe one day you'll return to hold me and breathe me
If somehow you're able to, as you said, get over yourself

Until then, I'll see how to handle this case
With the grace that bestowed itself onto my head
And it gave me the freedom to love without haste
And it cut me open with a skillful hand
And I'm standing without armor, fear, or the need to protect
I want you to know the depth of the trust I have
And the level with which I've embraced you as a boy and a man
And the longing I have to love you everyday

And as much as I wish for you to be next to me
And as much as I want to give myself fully to thee
I cannot and will not til you come as an empty entity
And if we are not meant to be...
I'll still love you the same with all of me
And march on into the world looking for another with your sweet energy
And I'll hold you dear in thought and mind
For you are myself, me, and, somehow, mine...

Silly Us

February 20, 2018


What's this need to be perfection
Who decides the point of "great!"
Who's the judge residing in question
Is there really such thing as "I am not there yet!"

No one feels safe inside his own skin
Wanting approval and needing some thing
Running and spinning around yourself
Not going anywhere except to the grave

How and who you want to be
It's all right here in a moment called "free"
Nothing to hide behind walls of illusion
Nothing to lose except fear and confusion

Look at the sky, at the grandeur of stars
Sit down on grass and feel the wet dust
Please close your eyes and sink into "now"
Life becomes simple and easy somehow

Your Noisy Room

All is fleeting, don't trust your thoughts
Dangerous waters, enter with caution
Keeping self down, take one more step
Don't stop, don't question, simply descend

Nothing is true, look at yourself
Have you seen change, a glimmer of rest?
Carefully watching, questioning eyes
Your eyes are shining despite the chaos

I choose to adore you
I choose to absorb you
You cannot escape
My love or my weight
I don't want to stop
I don't want to leave
I hug all of you
And I fall into deep sleep

And maybe I'll cry or have a good laugh
I only see you behind the beautiful eyes
I am only aware of what's deep inside
I feel and nurture each and every smile

Remaining with you all through day
I know you're going through unspoken hell
What's yours, I can't take but I'll stretch out my hand
I'll pull you with will and a need to help
Because nothing is real
Because nothing makes sense
I don't know what's next
So I quit and I rest
I choose to be here 
With you through the day
I want to be used
And give me away

And...
I'd love for you to stay
And...
Listen to what you say
And...
All else be as it may

Just know I am with you
Every minute of every day
As there's nothing to do right now or today